Walking In Winter
There’s a deep sense of survival that seeps into the bones during winter. There’s this look in peoples’ eyes that says: I’m not actually here. I’m hidden away, waiting for the spring thaw.
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There’s a deep sense of survival that seeps into the bones during winter. There’s this look in peoples’ eyes that says: I’m not actually here. I’m hidden away, waiting for the spring thaw.
I told them that it felt really overwhelming and heavy and that, honestly, it made me want to crawl into my closet and sleep for a long time, away from the pressure life whispers after graduating that says, what are you going to do with your life now?
There’s a part of me that embraces change. I’m itching for a new thing, and while buying a new ivory sweater will calm that itch for a moment, it returns when I see thunderclouds over the trees in my backyard, and my fingers drum on the porch railing in anticipation.
It’s really easy for me to make “Jesus was perfect” synonymous with “Jesus never had to deal with annoying human stuff.” But he did. What if I’m not meant to rebel so fiercely to what is ordinary throughout my day?
Appreciating wonderful and beauty and glory that exists outside of myself removes a burden from my shoulders I didn’t realize I carried.
We don’t want to learn. We want to file away someone’s insight, like a quote on an index card in our minds. We don’t want to have to know it to be true by forging each letter ourselves in the fires of failure. Getting it wrong.
I want to be able to sit in any room, across from any person, and admit that they have something to teach me. Something I can learn from.
My favorite coffee shops have an atmosphere that I think church was intended to have. It feels like a place God would hang out at a lot, a Central Perk I would find Him sitting in if He had some spare time or wanted to cross paths with His friends.
Back in January I announced that a short story/testimony of mine about pursuing contentment in the messy bits of life was published in one of Delight Ministries’ devotional volumes (SO CRAZY COOL), and loads of you have asked about when it will be available in the Delight shop for you to read. I finally have an update!
I want the ideal, without it costing me effort. But I don’t even have the space (either in my schedule or in me) for what I’m asking for to show up.